Oh its that kind of day.
Sometimes I get into these moods where I feel like my life is falling apart. Right now, I feel like my life is falling apart.
Call it immaturity, call it whatever you will, but things are just not going according to plan and it drives me nuts. It's not a huge deal, honestly...but I feel like the waters of chaos (A.K.A. A HUGE HURRICANE) is coming at me, and I am the only one left in New Orleans. Right by the Ocean. In between huge buildings. I swear on my life that I'm going to drown.
Here are the things crashing around me:
Health.
Family.
Friends.
Men.(Actually they are not crashing around me, which is the problem. They are no where near me.)
Money.
Lack of clean laundry.
Someday, I am going to escape.
This is one of the reasons I go to school in Idaho. Because when I'm in Idaho, I don't remember anyone back home. I don't even remember that other world.
There are two worlds I live in. One is college, and one is home and everything from my past. I don't like the home world. I love my home. But coming back makes me feel like a kid-napped child. I hate feeling like a kid-napped child. All unsafe and vulnerable. I go back to Rexburg in 5ish days. I can make it that long...
On a happier front I got some hard-core snow boots from payless. Holla. I'm going to wear those bad boys EVERYWHERE. Screw fashion.
ALSO: a little tip to everyone who shops at payless. Don't be rude. If you are going to be rude, I'm going to be rude. I have no problem with it. So to the lady who I politely asked to repeat her phone number, and she said back, "Can't you hear?" I say, "WHAT IF I WAS PARTIALLY DEAF, YOU INSENSITIVE CUSSWORD?"
Yeah you know that's right.
Friday, August 31, 2012
Wednesday, August 29, 2012
Growing up
I'm fairly sure every blogger I know either calls their blog, "Growing up", or has a post about growing up. So here's mine.
I think growing up is about figuring out who you are, what you care about, and what your standards are. And it's hard because part of growing up is change. I loathe change. I am one of those people who would like to have every moment of their life scheduled. Including the spontaneous moments. I'm a spontaneous scheduler. Figure that out.
But, life has thrown some major curve balls at me lately. I feel like every time I try to plan something, or accomplish something, it turns out completely different than planned. I always get this image in my head of how things are going to happen and it always turns out 100% worst. Curse you optimistic brain, curse you.
I get so carried away. Anway, so I am going to make a list of everything I know about myself and that I have learned about myself as I get older. Hopefully this will help everyone out there to think of all the things they know about themselves, and feel a little bit better about that awful situation called growing up.
1. I hate peas. And corn. But more especially that awful frozen mixture of both. Or the frozen mixture of any kind of vegetables. It is not okay to fix vegetables together in a pot of boiling water. Not okay.
2. I like to be right. Everyone does, but you don't understand. I'm extreme about it. People tell me frequently that I would make a good lawyer. I get all proud for a second, but then I remember that no one likes lawyers...
3. My favorite thing to do is read. I won't call myself a nerd though. Nerd is a derogatory term that everyone should have gotten past in High School. I just find it so soothing to sit down with a book, forget about my own boring story, and read someone elses.
4. I like chocolate. I am one of those stress eaters. When something in my life is bothering me, everyone knows it, because I can eat anything and everything in sight.I guess I do it because even if you feel empty inside, at least your stomach is full.
5. I really value my friends. I'm not perfect, but I would like to think that I would seriously cancel almost anything in my little schedule to be there for someone. Nothing brings me more joy than helping a loved one. Tear, tear, sniff, sniff, etc.
6. I love analyzing people. To an extreme. When I people watch I people watch hard core. I analyze why they might have picked the outfit they have on, how they look at people, their facial expressions. I try to guess what their life problems are just from the way they look. I don't judge by any means, I just try to figure out who that person is.
7. I truly know that the Church of Jesus Christ is true. It's as simple as that.
8. I've never tried Sushi. Always wanted to. I just thought I'd share that.
9. I'm a private person. In the sense that I like hearing about other people's lives way, way more than I like sharing about my own. I don't share unless people ask a direct question about it. I figure that if people really wanted to know, they would ask.
10. I really like exploring. When everyone says, "Hey what should we do tonight?" I say, explore. And then everyone looks at me like I am psycho.
11. There are about 15 people in my life that I sincerely question if I could live without. Maybe more like 10, but I'm giving it five extra just in case.
12. I like to clean. This is a new development for me.
13. I'm lazy. Sincerely and truly lazy.
14. I like animals. I don't like messes. Therefore I only like outdoor animals. I question whether or not I will have an indoor pet. Ever.
15. Going running is very soothing, but I rarely get up enough energy to go do it.
16. I like learning. NOT homework. Hence the lazy part of me.
17. I don't like variety. I order the same food at the same restaurants always, Get up and go to bed at the same time every day always. So...I'm boring.
18. I trust few people. Everyone says that...but I really don't. I trust my sisters, Rachel Foster, maybe my Mom and Dad. (They lied about Santa Claus, who knows what else they lied about.)
19. I will always have a corner of my heart for Harry Potter.
20. I don't think you ever truly get over the people you have loved, even if you are loving someone new.
21. I have stressful dreams. It's the worst.
22. I don't care for fake people. Fake friendships, but more especially, I hate people who promise to do something and don't. Don't say it if you don't mean it.
23. I am a spender. But I'm trying desperately to be a saver. That counts for something, right?
24. I have a hard time letting go.
25. I WANT TO TRAVEl. But see #23...
26. Death doesn't scare me. Lonlieness does. And the only way that death scares me...is if I burn slowly to death. Then I'm scared.
27. The word "sorry" doesn't make it better. But when you never do it again, or at least try not to, thats when they know you mean it.
28. You can always try harder than you were previously trying.
29. I am smart. I am lazy. In the real world. Hard work counts for double of what smartness does. The ones who get A's are the hard workers.
30. Selfless communication solves 95% of all problems.
Not done, I'm still learning.
I think growing up is about figuring out who you are, what you care about, and what your standards are. And it's hard because part of growing up is change. I loathe change. I am one of those people who would like to have every moment of their life scheduled. Including the spontaneous moments. I'm a spontaneous scheduler. Figure that out.
But, life has thrown some major curve balls at me lately. I feel like every time I try to plan something, or accomplish something, it turns out completely different than planned. I always get this image in my head of how things are going to happen and it always turns out 100% worst. Curse you optimistic brain, curse you.
I get so carried away. Anway, so I am going to make a list of everything I know about myself and that I have learned about myself as I get older. Hopefully this will help everyone out there to think of all the things they know about themselves, and feel a little bit better about that awful situation called growing up.
1. I hate peas. And corn. But more especially that awful frozen mixture of both. Or the frozen mixture of any kind of vegetables. It is not okay to fix vegetables together in a pot of boiling water. Not okay.
2. I like to be right. Everyone does, but you don't understand. I'm extreme about it. People tell me frequently that I would make a good lawyer. I get all proud for a second, but then I remember that no one likes lawyers...
3. My favorite thing to do is read. I won't call myself a nerd though. Nerd is a derogatory term that everyone should have gotten past in High School. I just find it so soothing to sit down with a book, forget about my own boring story, and read someone elses.
4. I like chocolate. I am one of those stress eaters. When something in my life is bothering me, everyone knows it, because I can eat anything and everything in sight.I guess I do it because even if you feel empty inside, at least your stomach is full.
5. I really value my friends. I'm not perfect, but I would like to think that I would seriously cancel almost anything in my little schedule to be there for someone. Nothing brings me more joy than helping a loved one. Tear, tear, sniff, sniff, etc.
6. I love analyzing people. To an extreme. When I people watch I people watch hard core. I analyze why they might have picked the outfit they have on, how they look at people, their facial expressions. I try to guess what their life problems are just from the way they look. I don't judge by any means, I just try to figure out who that person is.
7. I truly know that the Church of Jesus Christ is true. It's as simple as that.
8. I've never tried Sushi. Always wanted to. I just thought I'd share that.
9. I'm a private person. In the sense that I like hearing about other people's lives way, way more than I like sharing about my own. I don't share unless people ask a direct question about it. I figure that if people really wanted to know, they would ask.
10. I really like exploring. When everyone says, "Hey what should we do tonight?" I say, explore. And then everyone looks at me like I am psycho.
11. There are about 15 people in my life that I sincerely question if I could live without. Maybe more like 10, but I'm giving it five extra just in case.
12. I like to clean. This is a new development for me.
13. I'm lazy. Sincerely and truly lazy.
14. I like animals. I don't like messes. Therefore I only like outdoor animals. I question whether or not I will have an indoor pet. Ever.
15. Going running is very soothing, but I rarely get up enough energy to go do it.
16. I like learning. NOT homework. Hence the lazy part of me.
17. I don't like variety. I order the same food at the same restaurants always, Get up and go to bed at the same time every day always. So...I'm boring.
18. I trust few people. Everyone says that...but I really don't. I trust my sisters, Rachel Foster, maybe my Mom and Dad. (They lied about Santa Claus, who knows what else they lied about.)
19. I will always have a corner of my heart for Harry Potter.
20. I don't think you ever truly get over the people you have loved, even if you are loving someone new.
21. I have stressful dreams. It's the worst.
22. I don't care for fake people. Fake friendships, but more especially, I hate people who promise to do something and don't. Don't say it if you don't mean it.
23. I am a spender. But I'm trying desperately to be a saver. That counts for something, right?
24. I have a hard time letting go.
25. I WANT TO TRAVEl. But see #23...
26. Death doesn't scare me. Lonlieness does. And the only way that death scares me...is if I burn slowly to death. Then I'm scared.
27. The word "sorry" doesn't make it better. But when you never do it again, or at least try not to, thats when they know you mean it.
28. You can always try harder than you were previously trying.
29. I am smart. I am lazy. In the real world. Hard work counts for double of what smartness does. The ones who get A's are the hard workers.
30. Selfless communication solves 95% of all problems.
Not done, I'm still learning.
Friday, August 10, 2012
Favorite Things
I thought I would do a post of all my favorite things. Oprah style. Maybe not all of them, since I'm sure this list would reach a million items if I did, but maybe just the really good things.
1. Apricot Face Scrub. Get the St. Ives brand if you aren't a college student, the knock-off brand from Walmart if you are. (I know that Walmart is basically a swear word to some people; but I'm poor guys. Walmart has the cheapest make-up, shampoo etc. around.)
Go here if you want to buy some online or check it out. It's lovely stuff people. Never fails to wake me up in the morning. And it works well if you have oily skin.
2. The Hunger Games Book Series. I know that everyone likes these, but I truly love them. I read them a couple of years ago (before the craze I will have you know) and I love them. Yes, its a good, catchy story with a interesting romance, but truthfully part of what I love is the poignant point behind the story. The fact that half of the things that are going on in that society that seem so appalling; are going on in our modern society right now. I find it so ironic that here is a book that shows the awfulness of the hunger games...and then we all go watch it just like the people in the capitol. And what's disgusting is that I'm clearly doing the same thing as everyone else. Or what about the fact that SOOO many people are starving, homeless and jobless in the world, and here we are, in America, dealing with obesity as our challenge, and getting plastic surgery to fix it. Same. As. The. Capitol. Did anyone notice these things? Suzanne Collins used the United States as the setting for Panem. She even tells the story. The world destroys itself and somehow a few people survive, set up a colony and call it Panem. The book becomes much more disturbing when you think of it from these angles. I think the book is even much better than we give it credit for.
3. My Planner. That's right. I'm one of those people. College has made me a planner person. A dweeb who carries around a book with their life schedule written down in it. But if I didn't have my planner...my life would be chaos. I keep lists in it of music I want to buy, grocery lists, and money matters. I write down both of my work schedules, parties, things I plan to do with my friends, chores I need to get done, laundry days, birthdays, things that need to be cleaned, when I go back up to college, weddings, good quotes. In short, everything.
Click here for a link to my EXACT planner. Though to be fair, I got mine for free... But it's the best planner I've ever had. Thank you FranklinCovey.
4. My moccasins. I'm not trying to promote Payless by any means...but I am obsessed with their moccasin boots. They go with literally everything, are super comfy, and now, --because of the back to school sale--they are cheaper than they normally would be. And probably cheaper than you can find anywhere else. Not to mention I think they are so cute and fun. Best purchase I have made all year.
Click here for the link to these beauties.
5. Target. I know it's rather generic, but I love Target. I love that I can get things on sale there for 5 bucks. I love the variety they have. I love how I can get some staple clothes there that go with everything for decent prices. I love their bras. Perfect fits everytime. I would post the link to the website, or some cute clothes, but their website is down. Booo. So here's a picture to entertain your eye.
6. My hair people. I go to Lather n' Locks hair salon and it is a marvelous place. The people are friendly, and I LOVE my hair everytime I go. They've never made a mistake. They know what looks good with my face shape and skin tone, and they are always cute girls who strike up a conversation if you want one, and they are quiet if you dont'. Plus I got a spankin good head massage when they washed my hair. Such a good way to de-stress. You can also get your nails done here. I've heard nothing but praise from those who go there. And, as far as professional, clean, good salons go, they are one of the cheapest.
Click here for their website, where their phone number is too. I recommend Tricia or Hannah as excellent stylists.
I would put a cool picture...but the ones on the website don't do the place justice, and I feel weird using my own hair as promotion...so here's the Logo.
8. I love exploring. Literally there is nothing else I would rather do with friends, or with family. I love finding weird little restaurants, or secret meadows, or amazing mountain views or whatever. It's one of the reasons why I love living in Idaho. Because you can drive only 30 minutes out of town and find abandoned creepy houses, or amazing lakes, or Indian ruins or whatever. It's one of the most awe-inspiring, comforting places on earth for me. This is an old abandoned mine we found. Is it creepy or what? I would give you the directions...but a local man made me swear on pain of death I wouldn't tell anyone where it was. For reals though. Pain of death. But this one is about 2 hours outside of Rexburg. That includes driving in snow in the mountains to find it. There was also some sweet abandoned Indian things around...but both are in a secret location that we had to trespass to get to...
9. Aquafresh Toothpaste. I bet you think I'm joking. I'm not. It's the best toothpaste out there. I hate colgate. Hate. It's grimy. Aquafresh is extra minty and leaves your teeth nice and smooth.
Click here to go to their website. And make the switch from whatever you are using to Aquafresh.
10. Satchels. I hate purses. I hate that they are short, that they are bulky and make you seem preppy. But I am in love with satchels. I have 4 of those. I can't give you a website to any of the ones I have, because I got all of mine from street vendors. But here are some cute ones.
1. Apricot Face Scrub. Get the St. Ives brand if you aren't a college student, the knock-off brand from Walmart if you are. (I know that Walmart is basically a swear word to some people; but I'm poor guys. Walmart has the cheapest make-up, shampoo etc. around.)
Go here if you want to buy some online or check it out. It's lovely stuff people. Never fails to wake me up in the morning. And it works well if you have oily skin.
Click here for a link to my EXACT planner. Though to be fair, I got mine for free... But it's the best planner I've ever had. Thank you FranklinCovey.
Click here for the link to these beauties.
And here's a picture of me wearing my boots with a white dress.
Click here for their website, where their phone number is too. I recommend Tricia or Hannah as excellent stylists.
I would put a cool picture...but the ones on the website don't do the place justice, and I feel weird using my own hair as promotion...so here's the Logo.
7. Different Color Pants. You've already seen one sampling of them, they have Indian print, but I also have a pair of dark green ones. They are AMAZING. So much more fun to wear than just jeans. I really want a pair with flowers on them. And a pair of peach/rose/dusky salmon color as well. And there goes my budget. Again. I guess this could also go under the target one, because I got the green pants from Target, and the patterened ones from Charlotte Russe. (The green ones blend right in with the golf course. haha)
click here for a link to the tribal print pants from Charlotte Russe
And I want these ones below. So click here for the link to them. So cute.
Click here to go to their website. And make the switch from whatever you are using to Aquafresh.
Delight.com
click here for the website
I think that's all for today. I'll post some more good later.
Tuesday, August 7, 2012
Seven Peaks and Other Treats
I love a catchy title.
Anywho, so yesterday I went to Seven Peaks Waterpark in Provo, Utah with a couple of my best guy friends. I would post a picture, but one of them took the picture cough cough Stephen cough cough and hasn't posted it on facebook yet. I'll publish it on here as soon as I get it.
So Seven Peaks...I'm not as impressed as I thought I would be. I hear all these people from Utah sing that place's praises. It was not that fantastic. First a few complaints. It's so crowded. And I heard from other people there that it was considered a slow day. I'd rather die then go on a busy day then. Secondly, walking around on the pavement barefoot in the sun is the worst. Literally, I have burns on my feet from the hot ground. And it's not like you can wear your flip flops. You'd lose them in the water or on the slide. I should have brought water shoes. But honestly when I swim with shoes on I feel like any second I will drown from the weight of them. I'm very paranoid. Additonally, for being exactly $31.95 (with this price you get a tube voucher and a meal voucher) it didn't have enough things to do to keep me entertained. Yes, the slides were fun; slightly frightening but fun. And yes it was nice to be in the water on a hot day. But since I'm not from Provo I had to drive for about an hour to get there, plus the money for food. Not worth it people. I'm just saying...if I was going to spend the money, I would rather spend it on clothes. BUT may I add that I got to see one of my graduated college friends who lives in California. So it was worth it. Just to see him. And also to see my other friend. But he lives close by me, so it's not as big of a deal. But still. Here's a little secret about me...I love people, and more especially my friends. I would do anything for them. And I would pay any amount of money--may I add that I don't have much of it--but I would pay any amount of money to see them. Money comes and goes. But friends are more important. People are much more important. All in all it was a nice day. I got to escape from my rather train wreck of a life to be with a few old friends. And it felt wonderful.
Here's a little picture of seven peaks for those of you who have no idea what I'm talking about. This is just part of the park.
Don't be deceived by the 10 people in the picture. It's all a lie. There's normally about 100x that amount.
May I also add that the bathrooms were super, super, super, super gross. Worse than disneyland gross. Worse than the last gas station I went in gross. And I was in there in barefeet because we were on our way to the slides. Yeah. Needless to say that with the burns on my feet...and the bathroom germs...I am not touching my feet for the next 30 days except with gloves and a sanatation suit. They are offically on quarantine. Another secret about me...I am a slight germaphobe. Not one of the crazy ones...just one of the ones who seriously considers the amount of disgusting things on an object before touching it, and then will only touch disgusting things if absolutely necessary...and will gag while doing it.
I'm also finding out about myself that I am a chicken. Never before in my life have I been scared to do alot of things. But every year that I grow older is a year that I lose some of my bravery. Heads up to whoever I marry...I will be really boring by the age of 30. Maybe this is why people get married early and get divorces. The guy is probably thinking, "Oh I'm marrying this really cool exciting girl." Then 2 years later she won't do anything but sit at home because the world is so full of germs and danger. Then he gets out of there real quick and marrys a younger model. This also explains part of why older guys like younger girls. You can offically consider me a genius for figuring that out.
Anywho, so yesterday I went to Seven Peaks Waterpark in Provo, Utah with a couple of my best guy friends. I would post a picture, but one of them took the picture cough cough Stephen cough cough and hasn't posted it on facebook yet. I'll publish it on here as soon as I get it.
So Seven Peaks...I'm not as impressed as I thought I would be. I hear all these people from Utah sing that place's praises. It was not that fantastic. First a few complaints. It's so crowded. And I heard from other people there that it was considered a slow day. I'd rather die then go on a busy day then. Secondly, walking around on the pavement barefoot in the sun is the worst. Literally, I have burns on my feet from the hot ground. And it's not like you can wear your flip flops. You'd lose them in the water or on the slide. I should have brought water shoes. But honestly when I swim with shoes on I feel like any second I will drown from the weight of them. I'm very paranoid. Additonally, for being exactly $31.95 (with this price you get a tube voucher and a meal voucher) it didn't have enough things to do to keep me entertained. Yes, the slides were fun; slightly frightening but fun. And yes it was nice to be in the water on a hot day. But since I'm not from Provo I had to drive for about an hour to get there, plus the money for food. Not worth it people. I'm just saying...if I was going to spend the money, I would rather spend it on clothes. BUT may I add that I got to see one of my graduated college friends who lives in California. So it was worth it. Just to see him. And also to see my other friend. But he lives close by me, so it's not as big of a deal. But still. Here's a little secret about me...I love people, and more especially my friends. I would do anything for them. And I would pay any amount of money--may I add that I don't have much of it--but I would pay any amount of money to see them. Money comes and goes. But friends are more important. People are much more important. All in all it was a nice day. I got to escape from my rather train wreck of a life to be with a few old friends. And it felt wonderful.
Here's a little picture of seven peaks for those of you who have no idea what I'm talking about. This is just part of the park.
May I also add that the bathrooms were super, super, super, super gross. Worse than disneyland gross. Worse than the last gas station I went in gross. And I was in there in barefeet because we were on our way to the slides. Yeah. Needless to say that with the burns on my feet...and the bathroom germs...I am not touching my feet for the next 30 days except with gloves and a sanatation suit. They are offically on quarantine. Another secret about me...I am a slight germaphobe. Not one of the crazy ones...just one of the ones who seriously considers the amount of disgusting things on an object before touching it, and then will only touch disgusting things if absolutely necessary...and will gag while doing it.
I'm also finding out about myself that I am a chicken. Never before in my life have I been scared to do alot of things. But every year that I grow older is a year that I lose some of my bravery. Heads up to whoever I marry...I will be really boring by the age of 30. Maybe this is why people get married early and get divorces. The guy is probably thinking, "Oh I'm marrying this really cool exciting girl." Then 2 years later she won't do anything but sit at home because the world is so full of germs and danger. Then he gets out of there real quick and marrys a younger model. This also explains part of why older guys like younger girls. You can offically consider me a genius for figuring that out.
Friday, August 3, 2012
One Quick Little Thing
I just had the urge to share this today. I hope it helps someone else as much as it has helped me out. This talk has become what I live by lately. It's one of the hardest things I've ever done, but it's also brought me more peace than anything else I've ever done.
There is good stuff in this little blogaroonski.
Just click the link below and enjoy :)
http://www.lds.org/general-conference/2012/04/the-merciful-obtain-mercy?lang=eng&query=letting+go+envy
There is good stuff in this little blogaroonski.
Just click the link below and enjoy :)
http://www.lds.org/general-conference/2012/04/the-merciful-obtain-mercy?lang=eng&query=letting+go+envy
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